Okkk i again took a long break ( as if anybody cares) that i guess was due to the transition between a T shirt wearing ( i actually pittied people who wore shirts in college), roudy laughing and big mouthed college going mammoth to a person who has to wear most bulky outfit that can be put on a man ie FFormal ( 2 Fs are intentional), ironed trousers and formal shoes to go with all that ( ewwwww that feels uncle g types) but trust me u will like that change (actually chicks like well dressed males attributed to their hollow mind and shallow vision:P. Last time i felt like writing i was in luxury of my hostel room having all sorts of crazy fun and life seemed to be a piece of cake.I was least bothered about my BTP and a missed shot at basketball court or a long shot at badminton court caused more headlines than the ones i got wen i was being tortured during BTP presentaion ( you have to pay for ur sins in this world only :( there is nothing called judgement day) and now i am here sitting on my bed or floor ( both are one and the same thing) trying to find a life out of some old passion.
Life has changed upside down. I never thought i would be working my ass out in office and i always dreamt of a sports career knowing thats never going to happen but thats what is life all about, cherishing dreams and hope that universe will turn upside down just for u. All said and dreamt, life took a rather expected turn and i joined typical league of working men.The transtion from a jolly college lad to a new industry joinee continued and after starting feeling good about wearing formals i had to curb my distinguishing talent ie laughing hell out of even a stone aged joke or not even a joke at all. I'll tell u a incident wen everybody in my department came to know about my this talent.
A senior lady who sits at my floor left her cellphone on the desk and it rang suddenly ( well all cellphones dont give a mesage that they r going to ring before cathing u offguard) and it had some dance like ring tone. It rang and went off, then it again rang and again went off and then it again rang but this time a girl (aditi) picked it up and a collegue (rahul mathur) told to aditi "is ko khidki se bahar phek de.. hum bol denge ki phone dance karta karta bahar gir gaya" now i knoe that u will say that it wasnt a joke at all but i laughed like hell and my treasured talent was out. Slowly i learned to not shot that talent too much nd now this talent comes out as a smile and short lived laugh some times ( not any 1 hour sessions anymore) and i am okk with that becoz i still have those one hour session wen i am with frnds and not in office.
During college i always thaought that i can always manage sports time but sadly now my sense of sports is just a early morning jog and that just does my fitness regimen that was just a tiny part of my fitness and sports during college.
I know most of u must be getting an impression after rading all this that i am running out of life or i am one of those frustrated people who have ran out of life .But trust me i am not because if life has tought me something its that u shud always except change with open arms and i have done that and i am dead sure that i will not lose any of the friends or the characteristics that define me i have made all this time.and neways I AM LIFE IN MYSELF... so how can i run out of myself.Just few lines to close it all
If I lift my head
From the bed of stars, the ocean wide
If I call your name out
Would you carry me on inside
If I close my eyes
Let me put my faith in the whole design
Could you raise your voice up
Feeling that hope
Together with mine, yeah
But I'm on my way
Yes I'm on my way
I said I'm on my way
Yeah
But I'm on my way
If I'm on my way now
I'm better for it all cause I'm moving on
And whether they might say
After all you can see
Yeah you can see
I'm gone
But I'm on my way
Yes I'm on my way
Said I'm on my way, yeah
Said I'm on my way,
I'll never find my way back here from anywhere
I'll never find my way back here from anywhere
(I'll never find my way back here from anywhere
I'll never find my way back here from anywhere
But I'm on my way
I said I'm on my way
Yes I'm on my way
(I'm on my way)
Said I'm on my way
(Yes I'm on my way)
I'm on my way
Said I'm on my way)
Yeah
But I'm on my way
Friday, September 4, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Let's Catch Up!!!!!!!
Well it’s been pretty long since I felt like writing anything and rite now it feels like ages. It’s not that I dint have anything to tell or as if I was having pretty uneventful life ( partially true) but still I am pretty sure I would have made it sound like helluva life with my overwhelming diction ( something I am very good at). It’s just that I had somewhat lost interest in expressing myself and that also on a blogosphere which was red hot back then as all the red carpet celebs had decided to cheapen their dignity when they started pulling off publicity stunts in this field too and I thought that maybe I should give it a break (at least some one should have his brain’s equanimity going ). As I sit down this hot afternoon to reclaim old lost passion I feel very rusty and still haven’t decided what I will write about (and still I pulled off 180 senseless words till now :P) and there are like million ideas hitting my tiny 2 pound brain and believe me as u go on reading further u will notice all my conundrums. It’s not that my blog gets million hits per second or like anyone told me to start writing again. (yippieee I got a topic to write on and now I don’t need to pull off anymore senseless words but be prepared for lot of rustiness if u still reading this).
My father (actually everybody’s father) says that what u become in life or how much u achieve in life depends a lot on whom u look up to (yes, I literally had to look up to talk to him as he lived in first floor and I in ground floor) as your friend or as your role model and I think I had chosen someone who was good enough if not best in lot (let’s not name him everybody knows who it was but still I couldn’t manage to be even 1 percent like him) but like sunflower and sun we too have had our season and it was time to say good bye to partner of some happy and so I did, but I realized that I was not ready for change and so pulled of kiddy ideas like putting photograph of 200401006 on my pc monitor but still I think these foolish acts define me as a person. So as the old wings flocked back for convocation I wish if I had power to stop time. Well all said and not done convocation weekend really turned out the way I expected and those three fun filled days were worth the months I waited. I had some first time experiences (please keep ur minds shut :P )and when it was all about to end I could not help but cry because that was probably the last time when I will see Tushar bhaiya some of the best friends.
I see a lot of changes that have taken place since I last wrote anything. India has seen barbaric act of terrorism when Mumbai was attacked and whole country was held hostage on gunpoint by a group of 10 goons and for 60 long hours I was feeling as if our democracy, security and intelligence count for nothing and for long time after I was annoyed by the way the issue was being handled and the derisory statements by Pakistani leaders and their barefaced denial of proofs that suggested they were actual planners of this inhuman act got me red hot in anger. Pakistan has not done anything till date except accepting the fact that attacks were result of their homegrown terror schools and as I write this Pakistan has done enough to prove that it is a failed state where anyone can ambush high profile delegates and then escape unscathed after staging dance of devil for 25 minutes. Pakistan leaders have got a bigmouth to blame India for all this but I feel sorry at their plight as their own people ridicule their blame tactics. I can go on and on with this topic but it will only help in arousing my anger.
Coming to my small world, well it has been a mixed bag. I have managed to hold on to my sports although most of the times I am alone on basketball court but still I don’t feel any drift from that game and so is the case with Roger Federer who might not be the number one player right now but for me will always remain the best ever and I don’t see any reason why he wouldn’t be on top again come what may and as I see many people around me trying to suggest otherwise I cannot help but give them wincing faces. My one significant achievement has been that I have read 3 novels during this time (actually I couldn’t stand the idea of reading novels before) and also I have opened up a bit to Hindi movies and songs and actually enjoyed watching some movies like Jab We Met, A Wednesday and Delhi 6 in particular. I found Delhi 6 good in all aspects, it had some thought provoking sequences and ideas like in which it was shown how “Prem Chopra” tries fix “Sonam Kapoor’s” marriage there is a news channel in background in which dialog is “ ab aap dekh rahe hain akhiri souda” it was just hilarious and portrayed hypocrisy prevalent in religious ranks and also some strong sequences. It shows how we Indian seek refuge in totally absurd news and concepts and how they manifest themselves into big problems and how we all fall prey to our inner daemons and at the end we Indians just are one when it comes to killing evils in existing society and it presents a true picture of Indian society which goes forward day by day but never forgets its roots.
I think I have still not sorted out my confusions but in short this time gave me some very important lessons for life and I at least one fight with each of my friends some of them still haven’t been sorted and many a times I feel like sorting it but things just don’t fall in place anyways as I write this I am filled with new energy to sort all issues and get back to life which I have been missing like hell. As I end this first attempt of reclamation I am just observing the highs and lows I have seen in my writing also just few months back I had my article published on Reuters website (it’s true guys.. I used to kickass in writing) and now here I am totally rusty and struggling to find a topic but I pray to god that I find old passion again. As the end draws near I just have few lines to say…. Well it’s some lines of a song from Delhi 6 which describe my state during this period.
Ooo ek khushboo aati thi
Main Bhatkta Jaata Tha
Reshmi Si Maaya Thi
Aur Mein Takta Jaata Tha
Jab Teri Gali Aayaa, Sach Kabhi Nazar Aayaa
Mujhme Hi woh Khushboo Thi, Jise Tune Milwaaya
Maula Maula Maulaa Mere Maula…
Maula Maula Maulaa Maula…
Darare Darare Hai Mathey Pe Maula
Marammat Muqaddar ki kardo Maula
Mere Maula….
Tootke Bhikharna Mujhko, Zaroor Aata hai
Varna Ibaadatwaala Shaur Aata Hai
Sajde Mein Rehne Do Ab Kahin Na Jaaongaa
Ab Jo Tumne Thukraaya To Sawar Na Paaongaa
My father (actually everybody’s father) says that what u become in life or how much u achieve in life depends a lot on whom u look up to (yes, I literally had to look up to talk to him as he lived in first floor and I in ground floor) as your friend or as your role model and I think I had chosen someone who was good enough if not best in lot (let’s not name him everybody knows who it was but still I couldn’t manage to be even 1 percent like him) but like sunflower and sun we too have had our season and it was time to say good bye to partner of some happy and so I did, but I realized that I was not ready for change and so pulled of kiddy ideas like putting photograph of 200401006 on my pc monitor but still I think these foolish acts define me as a person. So as the old wings flocked back for convocation I wish if I had power to stop time. Well all said and not done convocation weekend really turned out the way I expected and those three fun filled days were worth the months I waited. I had some first time experiences (please keep ur minds shut :P )and when it was all about to end I could not help but cry because that was probably the last time when I will see Tushar bhaiya some of the best friends.
I see a lot of changes that have taken place since I last wrote anything. India has seen barbaric act of terrorism when Mumbai was attacked and whole country was held hostage on gunpoint by a group of 10 goons and for 60 long hours I was feeling as if our democracy, security and intelligence count for nothing and for long time after I was annoyed by the way the issue was being handled and the derisory statements by Pakistani leaders and their barefaced denial of proofs that suggested they were actual planners of this inhuman act got me red hot in anger. Pakistan has not done anything till date except accepting the fact that attacks were result of their homegrown terror schools and as I write this Pakistan has done enough to prove that it is a failed state where anyone can ambush high profile delegates and then escape unscathed after staging dance of devil for 25 minutes. Pakistan leaders have got a bigmouth to blame India for all this but I feel sorry at their plight as their own people ridicule their blame tactics. I can go on and on with this topic but it will only help in arousing my anger.
Coming to my small world, well it has been a mixed bag. I have managed to hold on to my sports although most of the times I am alone on basketball court but still I don’t feel any drift from that game and so is the case with Roger Federer who might not be the number one player right now but for me will always remain the best ever and I don’t see any reason why he wouldn’t be on top again come what may and as I see many people around me trying to suggest otherwise I cannot help but give them wincing faces. My one significant achievement has been that I have read 3 novels during this time (actually I couldn’t stand the idea of reading novels before) and also I have opened up a bit to Hindi movies and songs and actually enjoyed watching some movies like Jab We Met, A Wednesday and Delhi 6 in particular. I found Delhi 6 good in all aspects, it had some thought provoking sequences and ideas like in which it was shown how “Prem Chopra” tries fix “Sonam Kapoor’s” marriage there is a news channel in background in which dialog is “ ab aap dekh rahe hain akhiri souda” it was just hilarious and portrayed hypocrisy prevalent in religious ranks and also some strong sequences. It shows how we Indian seek refuge in totally absurd news and concepts and how they manifest themselves into big problems and how we all fall prey to our inner daemons and at the end we Indians just are one when it comes to killing evils in existing society and it presents a true picture of Indian society which goes forward day by day but never forgets its roots.
I think I have still not sorted out my confusions but in short this time gave me some very important lessons for life and I at least one fight with each of my friends some of them still haven’t been sorted and many a times I feel like sorting it but things just don’t fall in place anyways as I write this I am filled with new energy to sort all issues and get back to life which I have been missing like hell. As I end this first attempt of reclamation I am just observing the highs and lows I have seen in my writing also just few months back I had my article published on Reuters website (it’s true guys.. I used to kickass in writing) and now here I am totally rusty and struggling to find a topic but I pray to god that I find old passion again. As the end draws near I just have few lines to say…. Well it’s some lines of a song from Delhi 6 which describe my state during this period.
Ooo ek khushboo aati thi
Main Bhatkta Jaata Tha
Reshmi Si Maaya Thi
Aur Mein Takta Jaata Tha
Jab Teri Gali Aayaa, Sach Kabhi Nazar Aayaa
Mujhme Hi woh Khushboo Thi, Jise Tune Milwaaya
Maula Maula Maulaa Mere Maula…
Maula Maula Maulaa Maula…
Darare Darare Hai Mathey Pe Maula
Marammat Muqaddar ki kardo Maula
Mere Maula….
Tootke Bhikharna Mujhko, Zaroor Aata hai
Varna Ibaadatwaala Shaur Aata Hai
Sajde Mein Rehne Do Ab Kahin Na Jaaongaa
Ab Jo Tumne Thukraaya To Sawar Na Paaongaa
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